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[tj_rowe]

Argh, it's two weeks (a week and a half, now?) until my next doctor's appointment, and I have lectures so I can't just hide under a blanket until then. I hate the dark and the cold and my being fail and time and requirements and still not having filled in forms or done my post or done my work and the doctor's appointment is only about three days before I have to hand in all the work for Professional Skills III, not that the appointment is going to make me functional anyway, and I get brief bits of 'LOOK I AM HAPPY WATCH ME BE HAPPY YOU GUYS!' and forget myself for a while, but then the shadow creeps back over my heart and I'm paralysed again as soon as I'm alone.

I just don't know what to do.